6 days out from Hell

Well, it’s been six days since the bomb was dropped. Today was better. I’m in a better place. I took my mom to the spa this morning for a pedicure. I needed to do something to take my mind off of things for a bit, and this helped. It also helped my mom was there too. I have so many feelings about all this when it comes to her. She has helped me through this, and she will be with me daily to help with my recovery. I know she wants to do it, and wouldn’t want to be anywhere else… but I still feel bad. At 32 I still need her to take care of me, and that just seems wrong. What a total mess this is. My mom is one of my best friends in the entire world. I so hated the fact that I had to come home a few days ago and say those 3 dreaded words. I know she is scared too, she’s just too strong to show it.

My mom and I haven’t always gotten along. What teenage girl and their mom do? But, after I got married and started having children things changed. I became a grown-up, and no longer a child. A big turning point was when my grandma died. I swear it feels like yesterday. My mom adored her, and as I grew into a woman, I in turn adored her too. She was everything to us, and when she died a piece of us died with her. We leaned on each other, and became close friends. Even best friends.

So maybe today is a day to reflect. I adore my kids, my husband, and my family more than anything. There is nothing I won’t do for them…that includes beating Cancer too 🙂

2 thoughts on “6 days out from Hell

  1. vintageatheart February 4, 2013 at 8:36 pm Reply

    As a mother of two adult daughters, I can tell you this with certainty….one of the greatest gifts you can give your mother is to allow her to take care of you. As mothers, we are there to “fix” our babies. She needs you to give her that privilege because that is how she is going to deal with your cancer journey.

    The blog is real and inspirational…just what you hoped. My thoughts are with you and John.

    Donia

  2. vintageatheart February 4, 2013 at 8:41 pm Reply

    As a mother of two adult daughters, I can tell you this with certainty….one of the greatest gifts you can give your mother is to allow her to take care of you. As mothers, we are there to “fix” our babies. She needs you to give her that privilege because that is how she is going to deal with your cancer journey.

    The blog is real and inspirational…just what you hoped. My thoughts are with you and John.

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