Does it??

Does my world revolve around cancer?

“Jeez Jen, not everything revolves around you and cancer.”

Now, on a regular (non-cancer) Friday…maybe things would have been different.

But, sadly that’s not always the case. I can’t BE everything I use to be. I can’t DO everything I use to do. I am different…atleast for now. I sure hope I go back to the “old me” after this…but we’ll see. That is if all this torture is worth it in the end. And there truly is an…END.

It would be a sad sad world if my life was run by cancer…but maybe it is. Even if for now. I know the chemo sure has run my body. Every other week attaching a vein to a pouch of poison and praying for the best. Watching every last strand of hair you have fall into your hands during a shower…. that….. that must play a role right? I know my double mastectomy has run my body. Why wear a bra when you have no breasts? But, why BUY new breasts when they just tried to kill me. That must play a role right? I know the aches and pains and sleepless nights over and over that come from this play a role. My nighstand full of prescriptions must play some role…. right?

But again I can’t let cancer run my life.

Sounds easy right? Didn’t think so.

I’m attaching a pic of me, as I sit here right now. No make up, no wig, just the “old me” + cancer.

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2 thoughts on “Does it??

  1. Charmaine March 16, 2013 at 2:16 am Reply

    I’ve been following your blog for a while, and it touches me… I wish the best for you, and I want you to know that tonight’s picture by far shows your strength… Even the strongest cry sometimes… 🙂 You (and your wonderful family!) are in my thoughts and my prayers. 🙂

    • jenrd1012 March 16, 2013 at 2:30 am Reply

      Thank you so much. Not everyday is easy. But, I will not give up this fight no matter how many tears:) thanks again for your support.f

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