Does my world revolve around cancer?
“Jeez Jen, not everything revolves around you and cancer.”
Now, on a regular (non-cancer) Friday…maybe things would have been different.
But, sadly that’s not always the case. I can’t BE everything I use to be. I can’t DO everything I use to do. I am different…atleast for now. I sure hope I go back to the “old me” after this…but we’ll see. That is if all this torture is worth it in the end. And there truly is an…END.
It would be a sad sad world if my life was run by cancer…but maybe it is. Even if for now. I know the chemo sure has run my body. Every other week attaching a vein to a pouch of poison and praying for the best. Watching every last strand of hair you have fall into your hands during a shower…. that….. that must play a role right? I know my double mastectomy has run my body. Why wear a bra when you have no breasts? But, why BUY new breasts when they just tried to kill me. That must play a role right? I know the aches and pains and sleepless nights over and over that come from this play a role. My nighstand full of prescriptions must play some role…. right?
But again I can’t let cancer run my life.
Sounds easy right? Didn’t think so.
I’m attaching a pic of me, as I sit here right now. No make up, no wig, just the “old me” + cancer.