Overall today I felt much better. Must be my white blood cells zooming back up again. Went out for lunch with family for the first time since the “c” word came into my life…it was nice. For a moment I tried to forget that under my strategically placed green hat… was a bald headed chemo patient. It was refreshing:)
Onto deeper more personal news. Tonight John and I had the chance to sit down and talk. It was nice. The result of the conversation was that we were both scared. That we were both uncertain… frustrated… overwhelmed…. so on and so forth. Some regarding the same things…some not.
What it boils down to is marriage is not easy. Ours wasn’t perfect before cancer, and won’t be perfect after. But 11 years is a lot of time to get to know someone… and I think we know each other pretty well. Regardless of kids, or finances or even cancer… we were destined to be soul mates….and that’s exactly what we are.