A very quick update to say I feel like crap and it’s not getting better. I am calling the doctor first thing in the morning. My fingertips, toes, and heels are totally numb. Which makes typing on my iphone very odd. I enjoyed being home with my family, but this was the hardest weekend yet. I can barely walk I am in so much pain. I’m not sure if it’s my joints, or my nerves, but no amount of Advil or pain meds is helping.

I want to be done with this so bad. I can see the finish line and I won’t allow anything to stand in my way….not even this pain.

My night ended good though. My husband sent me a very sweet text before bed. It may not sound like much, but it really showed me how much he cares for me and is sad I have to go through this. Just a few words in a text….but those words made the difference between going to bed sad, and going to bed feeling loved.

4 thoughts on “Update…

  1. Anita Lynch April 22, 2013 at 5:00 am Reply

    I’m so sorry…that pain is undescribable. That neuropathy is tough & sometimes doesn’t go away for awhile. I have it again with the new pills & I just can’t really stand it. Hang in girl! Sending lots of girl power your way.

    • jenrd1012 April 22, 2013 at 5:14 am Reply

      Thanks:) It is so painful it is hard to describe. I am going to call the Doctor tomorrow and see what can be done. It was my first dose dense Taxol last week….and I can really feel the difference. The pain in my legs and feet is what is bothering me most. Oh, and it’s hard to use a touch screen phone when all your fingertips are numb! What a crazy journey we are on. It’s hard to describe it to someone who has never been through it.

  2. Christina Coverdell April 22, 2013 at 10:35 pm Reply

    I am so sorry you are in so much pain.. As I sit and read your post’s every day. I cry and just can’t imagine what you are going through sis.. I HATE THIS FOR YOU and all of those who have this ugly disease. I pray every day that GOD will take care of you and keep you from this pain. I pray asking for forgiveness of my sins and all who have sinned against me and I pray for those that are sick like you. I don’t understand why GOD won’t heal people. But I do know that he is real and we will be forever in eternity with no pain and no sickness and no more tears. And I look forward to that day. But in the mean time-as we endure this flesh in this world we will just have to pray to either God Take us from this misery or help us to endure. And I want you to know —I am praying for you sweetie.. I my heart ACHES for you. I wish I could help you-but the only way I know to help-is to make sure you are right with GOD and you know JESUS and to let you know that I am for sure praying for you. LOVE YOU and I am SOOOSOSOOSOSOSOOOO SORRY–:(

    • jenrd1012 April 23, 2013 at 12:16 am Reply

      Thank you so much for the comment 🙂 This is such a hard journey to take, and also so hard to exaplain. Somedays I feel like my posts are all negative and that’s not really what I want to portray. I want it to be uplifting, but it is so hard! Thank you for understanding and sticking through this journey with me:)

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