well today was awful. my bandages had to changed and it was overwhelming. I kept my eyes closed and didn’t look at anything. Then my epidural came out today and i was in pain. Catheter also came out, so that’s good (see John…a good thing:)
Beyond the dressings coming off and scaring me to death, a nurse came in (not my nurse.) and scared me worse. telling me a story about a friend who is 30 and terminal from breast cancer and chooses alternative methods. That doesn’t bother me, what bothers me is she just told someone who is 32 and just found out they have cancer a week ago that “hey I know someone with breast cancer who is young, and yeah she’s terminal.” What? I need stories that uplift. Stories of hope!
I love having visitors in the hospital.It sort of keeps my mind off of things and this Sicilian girl loves to chit chat š It’s hard to explain unless you have cancer. I want to hear upbeat stories. Stories of trial and tribulation…but ALL with happy endings. At least for now.
Now onto the happy part:) I have great family and friends that I saw today. So much fun:) My surgeon even stopped by on his day off and said I looked great. It’s the small victories!
My icing on the cake today? The sweetest joys I have had, and will ever have????? My kids:) š š There was no happier moment than seeing their faces running into my hospital room:) I love them and adore every moment God gives me with them:)
Taking it from the top 
when do you think they’ll let you go home [question mark] sorry. keyboard is wonky.