Is this my new reality?

So, today while taking a bath I feel a small lump under my armpit. This is where some lymph nodes were taken out, and pray to God it just has something to do with that. Down deep I am scared out of my mind. I can’t think or focus on anything else.

Is this my new reality? Even if it is nothing…is this my life? Poking and prodding…checking for lumps and bumps everyday. Is this anyway to live? It’s not.

I’d love to go on a “Why Me” rant about now, but I’ll hold off. It is just so frustrating:(

6 thoughts on “Is this my new reality?

  1. Missy Sorrell March 29, 2013 at 5:55 pm Reply

    Pratt for you! May you find rest and peace in the comforting arms of Jesus.

    • jenrd1012 March 30, 2013 at 3:34 am Reply

      Thank you so much for the prayers:)

  2. Kathy Voss March 30, 2013 at 3:11 am Reply

    Jenn,
    This must be like a bad nightmare for you. I would be out of my mind. I pray for your continued strength, understanding, and courage. Easter Blessings upon you.

    • jenrd1012 March 30, 2013 at 3:36 am Reply

      Thank you Kathy. This has been a total whirlwind and I will be happy when it’s over. I pray the good Lord gives me the strength everyday. Thank you again for the prayers:)

  3. Christina Coverdell March 30, 2013 at 3:18 am Reply

    I am so sorry to hear this darling.. I am praying for you everyday.. Not one day doesn’t go by that I am not saying a prayer for you.. My heart is broken for you. I know we have never met, but we are from the same town and I follow you’re posts, and I am so sad to hear this news today.. Trust in the LORD and he will give you strength dear friend. HUGS to you

    • jenrd1012 March 30, 2013 at 3:38 am Reply

      Thank you so much for all the prayers. I will be excited to meet you one day and say that I am cancer free:) This is a total whirlwind and I am just doing my best to put one foot infront of the other. Thank you again for thinking of me:)

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