Well today was okay at best. I felt pretty crappy all day from the chemo. I went in for my day after shot (rebuilds white blood cells) and also had an appt. for a check up with my surgeon.
My surgeon suggested that I get a pelvic ultrasound tomorrow to check my ovaries. When I had a PET scan way back after being diagnosed, they noticed a small spot on one ovary. At the time we wern’t going to worry about it, but it’s best to check it out and make sure it’s not cancer or anything else. Prayers needed.
I also wait to hear back about my tumor marker. I pray and pray the number goes down, and it was just the infection that made it spike up. I told the nurses I will never again ask, because I don’t want to know. If the numbers truly do fluctuate , I can’t handle that. I’m too much of a worrier.
Overall, I need a good nights sleep and some good news tomorrow:)
Just some fun photos I like 🙂 the girls & Peanut
Well chemo #3 is over. It went well but I found out my tumor marker number went up (from 23 to 33) can be nothing (blood was taken during my bladder infection ) or that the cancer is spreading. one of the two. So, prayers needed. Trying to stay positive, but it’s not easy. There was also a spot on one ovary during my PET scan, so getting a pap Monday to check that all is well.
getting ready for chemo. #3 and reading the paper:)
Today was a typical DBC (day before chemo). I rush around trying to do all the cleaning and last minute errands before chemo day. It’s stressful, but it’s better that I get it done before….than worry about it when I’m not feeling well.
I also found out my article in the paper comes out tomorrow. I’m nervous over it, because I’m not exactly sure how others will perceive it. I guess I shouldn’t really care, but I do. I hope there is a lot of good info for women with breast questions. The paper contacted me and I did my best to tell my story and my true life situation of having a family and a husband…with cancer.
I always get a little nervous the day before. It’s really the same damn thing over and over… but I still get nervous for some reason. In my heart I am happy it will be one more that is done and 5 to go….but I also wish it was all over now 😦 Chemo is hard on your body, and just want it over with.
Attached are a few photos from today. My good friend Ashley fixed my wig and it looks really good. I still prefer just to throw a hat on, but the wig does me feel like the “old me.” Still all up in the air:)
So, this is the way chemo works. The further you get away from it….the more you start feeling like your old self. The bad news? That means you are probably ready for your next treatment. And I am 😦
I am choosing to stay positive and just get through another treatment and push forward. This will be 3 down, 5 to go. Then I’m blowing this popsicle stand 😉
While I end on a good note here are some fun family photos I found. Most with my brother:) love you
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Overall today I felt much better. Must be my white blood cells zooming back up again. Went out for lunch with family for the first time since the “c” word came into my life…it was nice. For a moment I tried to forget that under my strategically placed green hat… was a bald headed chemo patient. It was refreshing:)
Onto deeper more personal news. Tonight John and I had the chance to sit down and talk. It was nice. The result of the conversation was that we were both scared. That we were both uncertain… frustrated… overwhelmed…. so on and so forth. Some regarding the same things…some not.
What it boils down to is marriage is not easy. Ours wasn’t perfect before cancer, and won’t be perfect after. But 11 years is a lot of time to get to know someone… and I think we know each other pretty well. Regardless of kids, or finances or even cancer… we were destined to be soul mates….and that’s exactly what we are.
Just had a pep talk (both ways) with my brother and decided to get up and get dressed. Hair or not 🙂