Tonight was not good. While hovering over the toilet throwing up yet again I just burst into tears. I had a weak moment of exhaustion and was just over this whole thing. I think every cancer patient has these days and it’s just part of the package. I was happy my mom wasn’t here because in moments like this she would have stayed and never went home again;) She is a nurturer by nature and that is a wonderful quality I got from her.
In my moment of weakness and tears my husband and girls came to my rescue. It meant everything to me. Sophie jumped into my lap and hugged me for over 15 minutes. She didn’t say a word just looked at me, kissed my forehead, and hugged me more. Kaylee brought in a drawing she had been working on. She is very artistic and it’s always her way of showing love. My mother in law even ran to Walgreens late just to get my prescription even after working a long hard day.
So all in all, the tears have dried and I have many reasons to be thankful. 🙂
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I’m so sorry you are struggling so. The only thought I have, and this seems frivilous, but the l
last time I was very ill instead of hanging my head over the toilet, I just got a big bowl and sat on the toilet and vomited into the bowl……..then flushed that into the toilet. I can promise you that it’s a lot more comfortable to do it that way.
It takes a little getting used to but if I were going to be sick as often as you may be, it’s worth a try.
This seems so little to offer as comfort. I’m praying for you, too!